Ideas

So I have been lulling ideas around in my sexy deviant mind.

I've had thoughts about throwing all of t's underwear out and forcing him to wear panties from now on. I think it would serve as a wonderful reminder of what he really is. (That would be My little panties wearing slut). I've also thought about making him get another tattoo. Something similiar to THIS. It would serve as one of the many constant reminders of who he belongs to. Not that I am worried that he will ever forget.

I've been also thinking about an outing soon. Maybe a nice woodsy type scene. Maybe one involving ropes, a tree and a some raw, intense pain. Perhaps some wrist and ankle cuffs, a large rock (to bend him over) and my new BFF (which I still haven't named yet!). Oh how I would LOVE to lay him down in a bed of poison ivy!

The ideas are endless!

Today I made t lay in the bottom of the tub while I took a shower. I "accidentally" dropped the soap and my wash cloth a few times, offering t a full view of my asshole and wet soapy pussy. Poor t, he could look but he couldn't touch. I know that drove him crazy, and I loved every wet, soapy minute of it. I also peed on his pathetic caged up cock. I decided that he didn't deserve to drink my nectar. I should have made him beg for some. Maybe next time.

t has had his cage on since Wednesday and I have offered him little in the way of activity, but am planning something big for the three day weekend we have coming up. I'm thinking this will be the perfect weekend to finally make him totally surrender all to me, to push him beyond his limits, give him what he has been asking for (even though I don't believe he understands the ramifications). I'm thinking the woods will be a perfect place for this. No one to hear to his screams. No one to save him.  No neighbors, no passersby, just Me, him and the creatures that live there.

 Time for me to get plotting  planning.

L

A Day Of Blues

I'm not having a good day today. I feel off kilter, not to mention saddened.

Last night, I released t from his submissive role thinking the balance would be healthy. I don't know if it is. I woke up this morning feeling sort of confused, vulnerable. I don't like the vulnerable feeling. It's not so much that I can't order him around and make him do things because I can do that whether he is "collared" or not. It's feeling like I have to become a different person. Maybe that is why it's so hard for me to get into the role when we take time off. I don't think I like wearing two hats. I also put my shield down. When I am in my role, less things bother me. I can handle the weight of the world on my shoulders, but as soon as I became wife, the weight began to make me crumble. I'm not sure how to deal with this. 

L

More This and That

First this:
Yesterday I was home alone and needed to be serviced. t's mouth wasn't available as he was at work. I decided to take matters in my own hands (litereally) and busted out my old bff the cutey wand. I sent a picture of tcw to t on his cell, just so he would know what he was missing. As activities er...progressed, I started thinking about my new bff, my old one just wasn't doing the job. I got into my toy box and found him, yes, my new bff. I rubbed him against my wet pussy, slathering my juices all over him. I then took a picture of him and sent it to t. I decided to put him on. Let me tell you, that is the most awesome feeling....ever. I took a picture of me wearing him and sent it to t. (Make that boy suffer for not being home to service his Mistress!) It was so freaking hot! If your Mistress doesn't have one of these, I suggest you buy her one. It will definitely earn you some brownie points! (heh, literally)

Fast forward to last night:
We went to bed early because I had a very important meeting that required me to be well rested. t fell asleep, but I laid there wide awake with my mind working overtime. I kept imagining t sucking off my brand new cock. The more I pictured his lips wrapped around it, the wetter I got. Finally I couldn't stand it anymore and woke him up. I told him that I was hot, horny and wet and he needed to go down right now and service me with that tongue of his. Not surprisingly, I didn't get any argument and it didn't take me long AT ALL to cum. Afterward, we just laid there, he was stunned that I was so "worked up" and I was feeling pretty darn satisfied....for the moment anyways. I still felt wide awake and the longer I laid there, the more I thought, the wetter and hornier I got. t was still awake, I guess it might have to do with me squeezing his balls (which were stretched and half smashed from the cb6000s) or something like that. I put my hand between my thighs and I was so wet and so ready. I tried to masturbate just using my hands but it wasn't enough, I smeared my juice covered hand on t's face and he was quite eager to lick the sweet smelling goo from my fingers. That send me into overdrive, I told him to get his face down there, NOW, and make me cum. It was awesome. I came with such ferocity that I am sure the neighbors heard every moan, every squeal and every deep, hard breath. I think it was my best orgasm to date. Can't wait to see what tonight brings!

Now for that:
My new bff needs a name. I am very open to suggestions. Feel free to comment.

L

My New BFF Has Arrived!!

Color me happy!

I am so excited! I can't wait to try this bad boy out. I will let you my thoughts :)

L

Lazing Around

Today is the perfect day to lie around and order your pet to wait on you, to drool over you, to service you......

And that is just what I did.

L

Back In Chastity

I'm not sure how long I will keep t in chastity this time. Perhaps until his balls turn blue? Until he begs Me to let him cum?

I will have to keep his tongue busy so he wont whine about not getting to cum. I can make him service me while I play games on my iPad, while I read my library full of new books, while I watch tv, while I play with my vibrator.....this is going to be so nice.

I will let you know how it goes.

L

This, That and Other Things

I think t is having a hard time with one of My posts. This one right here. he posted here about the confusion he feels at My mere thinking about it. As I have thought deeper and more realistically about introducing cuckoldry into our lifestyle, I have realized that it's not exactly what I need (or t needs), but similiar.

I want to incorporate others into our lives. I don't want a boyfriend/girlfriend. I certainly don't need that hassle in my life, especially right now. Perhaps a playmate for t, or two, totally submissive playmates. How does that benefit Me you ask? There are certain needs that t has that I am just not able to meet. Does that mean I wont try from time to time? No. However it would make things so much easier on me to be able to use another to meet those needs. Especially with the events that are coming up next month. Also, I feel the need to be worshipped, constantly, by someone that is totally submissive. I and t were a vanilla couple before entering our special relationship. There are still times when he isn't submissive and I don't like it. It throws Me off. Sometimes it turns Me off to the point that I refuse to even think about playing. It would be nice to have a pet that has never tried to be in charge. So basically what I think I am saying is that t hasn't surrendered himself to Me completely, and that is what I need.

So.

If I could paint the picture of the perfect pet.......

he would cherish every second with Me. Good or bad. he would want to please Me sexually, emotionally, physically.....in every way. Shape. And form.

his whole world would be centered around Me. his one concern would be whether I was pleased, satisfied...taken care of. Though his needs would not suffer, Mine would come first, but he would go to the ends of the earth to make sure that I am thoroughly happy.

he would not hold back. he would be proud to be My pet and let it be known.

he would accept any decisions I make without questioning Me and be happy with it. he would never, ever tell Me no. he could reason with me and plead his case, but in the end, accept My decisions.

he would never try to "top from the bottom". That is such a turn off!

There are more details however I wont bore you with them. But what I'm saying is that I need for t to surrender completely. he can be as dominant as he needs to be outside of the house, but with me, he needs to check it at the door.

Now that I have covered the "this", it's time to move on to that. I need that.

I have been looking at houses that offer the space needed to create the perfect playroom for I and t. I believe that a playroom is essential in any D/s relationship. It would be nice to have the perfect space used only for those special needs. I am unable to have that where we currently live due to space constraints and it is a contributing factor to needs not being met. I often picture what the room would look like, smell like and feel like. I can't wait to create the perfect space for I and t!

With that said, it's time to move onto other things. I am putting t back into chastity tonight. I don't keep him in permanently, but we are going to work on that. I can't stand the thought of him touching My cock when I am not around. I'm also going to talk to him about changes that need to be made in our relationship. I'm not digging the on/off thing we have going. I need something more permanent. I must have 100% submission. Mind. Body and Soul.

It's time.

Comments or questions?

L

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

To me :)

Very Well Said!

 I love the way fur sissy explained submission. Go here.

Good job fur sissy.

L

I Want This

THIS right here. My birthday is in just a few days. Let's see what I get.

L

Interesting....

I'm not sure exactly how I feel about this. I do know that I keep finding myself reading blogs that are centered around this. It all sounds so fascinating, especially this. 

Pros and cons:

Pros: A lot of My and t's needs would be met. It would be exciting. It would make me feel alive to be worshiped by more than one pet.

Cons: I'm a very jealous person, as is t (I believe). I have a tendency to act on impulse and regret later. t might also have regrets later. 

Could I?

Could t?

Should we?

What are your thoughts?

L