Last night, I released t from his submissive role thinking the balance would be healthy. I don't know if it is. I woke up this morning feeling sort of confused, vulnerable. I don't like the vulnerable feeling. It's not so much that I can't order him around and make him do things because I can do that whether he is "collared" or not. It's feeling like I have to become a different person. Maybe that is why it's so hard for me to get into the role when we take time off. I don't think I like wearing two hats. I also put my shield down. When I am in my role, less things bother me. I can handle the weight of the world on my shoulders, but as soon as I became wife, the weight began to make me crumble. I'm not sure how to deal with this.